Sunday, January 20, 2008

My Beloved

As I think of Kenya, my beloved, James Blunt's song echoes in my ears and as my jaw drops in disbelief of the wanton destruction and the absolute disregard of human life. I refuse to accept that this is my Kenya, My Beloved. We all pray for peace and calm and that hope is restored to the hearts of all our country men. That innocence is restored in the eyes and heart of our kids, the future of our beloved.

James Blunt - No Bravery Lyrics

There are children standing here,
Arms outstretched into the sky,
Tears drying on their face.
He has been here.
Brothers lie in shallow graves.
Fathers lost without a trace.
A nation blind to their disgrace,
Since he's been here.

And I see no bravery,
No bravery in your eyes anymore.
Only sadness.

Houses burnt beyond repair.
The smell of death is in the air.
A woman weeping in despair says,
He has been here.
Tracer lighting up the sky.
It's another families' turn to die.
A child afraid to even cry out says,
He has been here.

And I see no bravery,
No bravery in your eyes anymore.
Only sadness.

There are children standing here,
Arms outstretched into the sky,
But no one asks the question why,
He has been here.
Old men kneel and accept their fate.
Wives and daughters cut and raped.
A generation drenched in hate.
Yes, he has been here.

And I see no bravery,
No bravery in your eyes anymore
Only sadness

Friday, December 28, 2007


I know and he knows
On bended knees
I bow my head and humble myself
I ask for it, this blessing
I hold out hope and faith
And believe that its in the cards for me

Through those days
When i truly feel tested
when my patience and hope
Is diminishing
When that dark cloud looms over
I know that he knows, soon sun will be out

This is my prayer as I count down the days and await this new year. I pray for faith, trust, and believe that it truly is for me and that only he knows that it will be OK. All i need to do is wait and let life take its course. PATIENCE, PATIENCE AND HUMILITY.

Friday, December 21, 2007


Dear Santa
This year has been a tough year
And I tried, I was only naughty
three quarters of the year
So please, throw a bitch a bone
And I will pick none with you

Last year I was good I think half the year
And for all the Italian I speak
Prada, Dolce and Gabbana
I got no Italian goodies
So this year, let it happen
I will visit the mall and point them out

Oh Santa
I promise that I will make you cookies
And my fireplace, well if u could give me one
Maybe I'd have a place to put the cookies
And my ravenous family wouldn't get them
So put that on my list, I could use a new home

Santa, what a tough cookie I have been
And for a tough year, i deserve plenty
my Italian goodies aside, my home besides
Give me lots of good friends, or at least refurbish the ones i have
Make them as good as new, and i will give hugs all around
And cook and let the wine and booze flow

So Santa, for a good girl my list is so short
I will settle for the whole list and most of what u know i also wish for
I do pray that u give to those around me blessings
I do pray that you give them joy and hope
For a better and prosperous tomorrow
So next Christmas, they'll relieve you and give me some
This Christmas, I hope that Mrs Claus is good to you
I hope all the reindeers' are fully fueled and can get you around
I hope your Sleigh is tuned and gives you plenty of mileage
Because we all await, we all hope and all appreciate this Christmas
And pray for many more

So to you and yours Merry Christmas and a Happy NEW YEAR!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007


As the sun rises,
The birds awaken,
The evolution of morning
Start of song, song of the day

As the wind blows
Trees sway, leaves rustle
Birds chirp
Start of the beat, beat of the day

I hear the music
I feel the beat
I grasp the rhythm
Rhythm of the song,
I nod, you nod, we nod
The soul of the voice
The sultry lyrics
My heart skips, my heart beats

You bate your eyes, i bate my eyes
Each string of the guitar
Each caress of the keyboard
This soulful sound

I live for this sound
I match to this beat
I sing to this song
The soulful, sultry song of my life, each day I awaken

Tuesday, November 20, 2007


I give thanks for my life's blessing, little or big. For all I have I wish to remember to be thankful and keep my complains to a minimal. I already know as i type this just how hard a feat this is since with every disappointment, every failure I go through I have to hurl out my fair share of "F bombs" not many as i an not very fond of the word. (goddamn it is my poison word of choice..) before i remember to be thankful for anything else. But truly as I wind down my day, I intend to take account, remember to be thankful and gracious, try to see where i erred and pray to do better tomorrow. Remember to let each days experience humble me.

Days are winding down and the New Year is inching in.. OK maybe not inching in. The new year is fast approaching and yes I do have my resolutions and my wants for a better new year. Now I realise that the 1st of January is just another day and I try each year to look at it just as another tomorrow, granted that somehow it is declared the beginning of another year.

As I reminisce the past year looking forward to this new blessing that I acknowledge many will not have the chance to experience, I think of my forever, whatever that means....

As the year comes to an end
A new one begins, I look back
I review my goals and set new ones
I try to resolve my looming issues
Repent my transgressions and pray
That hopefully this new year
will bear a better tomorrow
Hopefully this new year
I will evolve a better me
Hopefully this new year
I will pray more, adhere more
Listen more, act more and talk less
This new year, I will sow better seeds
This new year....

This forever that I yearn for. This continual bliss, success... This forever will be a certain one that no matter how and when tomorrow comes, I will be ready. In all fairness, I don't even know what being ready means, so whatever concept of ready that my brain, my heart and soul can master. That is the Forever I want, a simple way of appreciating the limitlessness of whats in my reach. I pray to find Forever Today, so that today I will love limitlessly, I will thank limitlessly, I will be so grateful for today. Truly, Forever is unknown to any of us so I pray to live today like it is my forever and not have to wait for the new year.

Think of this...

As morning breaks,
Comes the promise of a new day
With each challenge
With each triumph
The day urges on
And as the clock ticks away
And morning turns to afternoon
Afternoon to evening
Evening to night
Then what will you have to say of your day
Productive as it may be?

Saturday, November 3, 2007


Pure of heart
An abundance of patience
An overflow of humility
Passion unmatched
The tread of grace
Unconditional Love, infinity

I sneeze, and with the hem of her dress she cleans me up
He coughs, she whips up a quick concoction
Every step, every misstep, every fall
She walks beside me, redirects and uplifts
There is no resting, no relenting

Pure of heart
An abundance of patience
An overflow of humility
Passion unmatched
The tread of grace
Unconditional love, infinity

She walks barefoot, gives me her shoes many sizes too big
For she trusts i can achieve whatever she has not
Life picks her up and drops her in pieces
But she is up and giving what she cannot fathom, even for her
And she carries on a smile at hand

Pure of heart
An abundance of patience
An overflow of humility
Passion unmatched
The tread of grace
Unconditional Love, infinity

She gives, no return, no expectation
Although the rules say give and take
She loves for better or worse, no expectations
Although the rules say love one another
And she treads with the air of a queen

Pure of heart
An Abundance of patience
An overflow of humility
Passion unmatched
The tread of Grace
Unconditional Love, Infinity

This phenomenal woman, the mother, the wife.

Friday, November 2, 2007


Its friday and whats a girl to do? As i think and surf the net for a something new, something different to do.(we love to try out new things and i think men should just try it). As i'm reading i see something interesting... As women we all have a glossary list of what we want in a partner (after we get over the fact that the mills and boon, fabio type doesnt really exist). Anyway the article posed the question..."what do we have to offer/give to a partner." Now i have to admit that we dont always think of that. We are so busy wrapped up in what we want and what we expect and how much of queens we are and should be treated as such, that we forget that for every queen exist a king. And a king should in turn be treated as that. (now girls dont hate.. fair is fair. Oh and this doesnt mean that i wont trip once in a while) But it is high time we articulated what we bring to the table.

My simple way of my articulation and empahsis of that fact that i too can give; emotionally, financially and physically. To him, that man, that special person my fabio..... (this is an old piece but i think it fits my thoughts at this moment)

My heart craves for him
My soul longing, anticipating
Oh how I want him
I need him, I ache for him

I see him in my dreams
As he moves...
I see grace, I see
Majesty, I see my love,
My darling
Those strides, Oh God!
Such masculinity, such strength
Such a masterminded Piece of art!!!
How I want him
Such agility Synchronizing each and every
Muscle, extending to many,
Many Miles and miles of nerves

He captures my eyes and
I want him to fill me
Nourish my heart and soul
Complete me that I hunger no more
I beseech for him,
I pine for his touch
His that will shake my body
Scatter my thoughts in all directions

If I have him
If I get him
If I be so lucky
So utterly boundingly blessed
Dear God help me!
For forever it will be

I will touch so slowly
Every part, every nook
I will look, stare
I will satisfy every bone
Every muscle, every nerve
With my hands I will knead
With my fingers I will caress
Everyday all day
Every night, all night
I will christen him'.

I will christen him, with my lips
As I kiss, suck, lick
I will love him
I will contend him
He will hunger for none else
But me'
If I get him
If I have him
If I be so lucky
So utterly boundingly blessed!